i tink i died....

well...i went for the air asia interview last saturday....and i din get the job...coz i duno y...may b age...may b not preety...mayb i jus dono y...god help me....ten came back n went to watch harry porter and the half blood prince...it was awesume!!!ten on sunday went to church in the morning...ten at nite went to watch FAME THE MUSICAL!!!!it was amezing...blew my mind away...ten came back....and now sitting and suffering at home....lmao!!!this is my life la...anyway cannot wait for this thursday to go to penang ALONE!!finaly at last...oll by my self!!!wooohooo...!!!!awesumeness!!!!!!!

hehehehe...

okay...i have no idea y im sow excited suddenly...sum1 care to explain y??kay...tomoro im goin to class n rocking the place down...hahahahaha...wakakakaka...and hopefully life goes on...and i can go for the interview on saturday saint ly.....hahahahahaha......and then saturday...i got air asia interview...omg its finaly here....n im excited...cnt even sleep...this is crazy....n sharon is giving me a mask tomoro..sow that it will be easy to apply makeup on saturday...
isn't she the sweetest??!!!!!!!!!

omg!!!!i got such gud frens!!!love them lots...love ya ppl...c ya tomoro...nites...luv ya once again...gosg!!!gos im sow freakin...freagkin excited...estatic!!!!pray for me...i get the job!!!

y me la...y me??

vatt's oll tis noncence oll about huh??fiteing??ish...ish...ish...noncence...anyway...other ten hating life...haha..lameness...gosh!!luk at me...lafing at my own joke...how much (lemeer)can i get..??

i got 2 tickets to penang..for st.anne's feast...any1 wana go let me noe asap...

had a fite with dad today...not a fite la...was talking oni ten he craping oll the way...tink i went nuts for a while ady...ten crying la...n oll the crap...

this is ridiculous....

ish...ish...

and yet another day goes by...and im still sitting at home feeling depressed....dunt have a boyfren...las nite afta writeing my blog...wildfren msg me...asking me to couple with him...and wen i say no...he says he was jus kidding..wth??u dun fucking play with ppls feelings la....and then he says he is waiting for azila...they made a promise to each other...if u did that then y ask me to couple with me??kinda stupid rite...haiz...watt to do...lmoa...

and sow...my mother as usual...irritates me with her annoying voice and attitude...god...i fucking hate the sight of her...and that voice...jus annoys me...other then that...spent my nite out inside the car...(it was hot)and listened to music...while msging with hamresh....ten...went o fetch joe...in HER CAR...and then came back...had a little fight with joe...was solved by appa...then...nw on my laptop...all alone in the dark...

see ya tomoro...nites...luv ya...xoxo...

haiz...

and yet another day goes by....jus simply borifiying!!!and irritating...i tell u...i hate my mum's tution students la....fucking iirtating man these kids....if i could kill 1 by 1 i would.....ten my dad tell me to compromise...shut up n live with it....how much must i compromise??how much must i shut up??how much must i take..???help me la ppl....this is too much....she jus cant shut her mouth can she?she jus has to irritate??wat the hell does she want??attention??go fuck sm1 else n ge t ur attention la.....i hate my mother...infact i dun have a mother she disowened me ady...sow im not at lost....gud for me bad for her....i hate my freaking mother...!!!!!wooohhooo....

and guess wat hapen??eva told me there's an interview with air asia in sepang nex saturday...papa's taking me...hopefully i pass.....i rely want the job to prove the baldy bitch rong!!!!god help me with it...thats it for now the moral of today's story is u hate my fucking freaking mother!!!!she's a total freak!!!!i cant even stand hearing her voice!!!!hope she dies soon!!!good ridence to bad rubbish!!!

wooohooo!!!!

school was awesume!!!!!absolutely loved it!!!!!met olll my bestiez....too bad ayu was nt ter...but it was fun like crazy...a bunch of lunatics loafing in school...n marty(theresa)was ter....felt exactly like school days...but tis time im not wearing uniform...owh...n we went for the haunted hounted house..it was totaly lame...n nikitha was 1 of the ghost...rolling on the floor...haha...n she was out we went to find food to eat...ten settel in the dewan...playing true or dare...n ten 1 by 1 started leaving...n soon it was 1oclock...n v left as well....n tada...came home and she was home..n her lame students were here...ten life goes on as usual...the and...

haiyo!!!!omg!!!!

finally i have the laptop to myself....this birdy playing game evaryday freaking irritating...anyway...yesterday was awesume to start with....went for the interview in bangsar with degem diamond and i got the job in SACC(shah alam section 4..)near my grand mother's house...hopefully tey dun c me working ter...sow...il be seling diamonds in the near future...

and then i went to leisure mall with ayu to go gt a job in anw...and her interview was today...but i tink she got the job...(low pay)3.50 an hour....nt worth the money...and then met joey n went with mum to pay the bills...and came home...

who the hell she tinks she is huh asking me to do all the chores...??n joe cn sleep??wtf??sow i din do anyting...

ten wen papa cumes home...a blady war startes...tey talk bt the divorce....ten she tell papa...tat i vh to do wateva she askes me....WTF??wer in the world as justice gone??and i told papa im nt gona do wateva she tells me to....n infact i dun want her to noe wad i do,wer i go,wads goin on with my life,wer i work(n she tinks im working for the airline ting)and she said only an idiot will say that...but to bad la ma u diowened me sow i hv no probs...hate me all u want n il do the same....ten wen papa shuts her up she defends her self...n he say he's trying to difuse the situation...n ten she jus loses at the end....n thats wen i take 4 panadol(actifast)n go to sleep....

nex morning i wake up wen she' back from work bt 12 smting....n watch tv....n she as usual dun care weather me n joe gt food r nt..ten i shower n call hema tank god she'z home...n uncle richard arrives with his wife....n they pray n stuf...n i go n buy food....wen i cum back...they r still ter...sow fine...ten i wana eat tey call me to pray n stuf...n he tell me the reason im not geting my airline job is coz im not praying with my mother...wtf??i dun even hv a mother...the only 1 i taught i had disowened me...sow why should i give a damn bout praying with her...n his with ask me to take the bible n luk up psalms 35:3-5 n john 10:10 n read la...ten tey bless her new car(myvi)n go...n the unty crying telling me my the story of my life will touch many if i go back to god....il go back to him wen im ready...

nter i go all nuts again....had my lunch...n genius took 10 panadols to sleep off the depression...n could'nt eat anyting...well i tried...ate 1 egg with 6 slices of bread for dinner n ended up vomiting evaryting up withiin 10 mins...ten had a shower...n vomited again...wad a total genius i am...shud give me an award for idiocy!!ten get scoldedby papa...n slept off...

woke up today morning by the phone call from papa....ten ate...ten watch tv...ten died of boredem...ten did sum chores....ten slept...ten...watch tv...ten showered...ten ate dinner...(hot dogs) ten nw touchering evary1 i cn find to make my misarable life interesting....n sowfar nting hapened...

nites then....hopefully tomoro'z dinner would be interesting...

pray for me...to get thru life with r without god....i need to prove to ppl i can do it...i may have the worst family but i hv gt the ppl who love me around me to pull this together n be sumbody sumday soon.

*pfft**

hellow....im back...n tired...wen with ayu...got her a job in bukit bintang plaza in parksons....ten went to pavillion....ten went to leisure...ten got drunk on coke...haha...and finally...home sweet home filled with kids...god!!tey have got to go...ASAP....

sow...tomoro is the interview....with degem diamonds....in bangsar...i hope i pass...i rely need tha job to keep papa shushed...n yet another day goes by n still havent msg mark yet...wth is rong with me??i wish i knew...

thats it for now...nites!!xoxo..

help!!!*sob**sob*

omg!!!!why did god create love huh??why does it hurt sow badly?all i did was luk at pictures of him on facebook...and he's with this indian gurl name priya wateva....n gosh jus to see them sitting nex to each other it self hurts sow much wat more if i hear they are together i think il stab my self to death now its self....even thinking of it it self hurts sow much la....love is a silent killer la...n it ****ing hurtz...i rely wish he knew hw much i love him.... the least he could do would be just tell me what he feels or tell me to stop hoping coz its nevar gona hapen no matter wat i do coz he's jus nt plain interested in me...would that be alot to ask of him??

anyway,i din text mark today...yes again im freaking out...like a freaking chicken...but wth is that compared to what ifeel foe ray...god!!i jus wish he knew...anyway...i hv an interview with degem diamond on tuesday...and i hv a mock interview in class on wednesday....scary man....i jus pray i pass it sow that i can buy my car in the near future...n prove to people that im nt an ass...but i cn do wateva i want if i put my heart to it....n this i hv to achieve buy the end of this year....hv to....

thats it i guess for now but be sure to tune in for more heart broken news tomoro...chow!!nites take care...

another day goes by...

well...another day goes by...n i still haven't text mark yet....still have not found the gut's to do tat...n..omg!!kiru needs to get a life n stop counting on me to make him hapy by being the gurl of his dreams...wth??total lameness...n ayu's dad definately needs to let that child go...she needs to fly...(but not too far from me of course)r thats is im dead...

tv is another boring ting...repeat episodes..tink im gona die sum time soon...n my throat's paining n i hv no idea why...thats it i guess...adios!!chow!!nites..

awesumness!!!

Hellow!!!my name is Anita Joyce...im 17 goin on 18....studying to be a stewardess in inter excel...its an awesume job...rely luking forward to it...im a simple gurl...with a simple family...n a preety cat...blooming dale...

Well the most awesumest ting hapen today...i met prince charming!!never in a million years i taut i would feeltha same way....first it was ray...nw this dude...gosh!!!well...if ray can never be mine for tha taking then...if i have no other choice....mark...hopefully...would cut it...

Just when i taut to myself...concentrait on wad u gona do with ur life gurl...boys will cum n go...and thats when...i had to meet mark....what is it with me n guys huh??i myself dun gt it...

Kay,now the situation like this...i have marks number...but wad do i do wit it??i could not stop smiling from the time i came back and i told mei mei bt wat i taut of mark....n she's like..."is it??""u tink he cute??""u wan he's num r nt?"...n im like "owh,come on gurl....im like tha world's biggest chicken...wen it cum to guys...n u giving me his number??gosh u must rely tink i've got tha balls to even text him...."

MISSION:text mark n c wat he's like.....hopefully he's cool with me having he's number...n cool with me texting him....n god i freaking pray....HE'S SINGLE!!!!