and then i went to leisure mall with ayu to go gt a job in anw...and her interview was today...but i tink she got the job...(low pay)3.50 an hour....nt worth the money...and then met joey n went with mum to pay the bills...and came home...
who the hell she tinks she is huh asking me to do all the chores...??n joe cn sleep??wtf??sow i din do anyting...
ten wen papa cumes home...a blady war startes...tey talk bt the divorce....ten she tell papa...tat i vh to do wateva she askes me....WTF??wer in the world as justice gone??and i told papa im nt gona do wateva she tells me to....n infact i dun want her to noe wad i do,wer i go,wads goin on with my life,wer i work(n she tinks im working for the airline ting)and she said only an idiot will say that...but to bad la ma u diowened me sow i hv no probs...hate me all u want n il do the same....ten wen papa shuts her up she defends her self...n he say he's trying to difuse the situation...n ten she jus loses at the end....n thats wen i take 4 panadol(actifast)n go to sleep....
nex morning i wake up wen she' back from work bt 12 smting....n watch tv....n she as usual dun care weather me n joe gt food r nt..ten i shower n call hema tank god she'z home...n uncle richard arrives with his wife....n they pray n stuf...n i go n buy food....wen i cum back...they r still ter...sow fine...ten i wana eat tey call me to pray n stuf...n he tell me the reason im not geting my airline job is coz im not praying with my mother...wtf??i dun even hv a mother...the only 1 i taught i had disowened me...sow why should i give a damn bout praying with her...n his with ask me to take the bible n luk up psalms 35:3-5 n john 10:10 n read la...ten tey bless her new car(myvi)n go...n the unty crying telling me my the story of my life will touch many if i go back to god....il go back to him wen im ready...
nter i go all nuts again....had my lunch...n genius took 10 panadols to sleep off the depression...n could'nt eat anyting...well i tried...ate 1 egg with 6 slices of bread for dinner n ended up vomiting evaryting up withiin 10 mins...ten had a shower...n vomited again...wad a total genius i am...shud give me an award for idiocy!!ten get scoldedby papa...n slept off...
woke up today morning by the phone call from papa....ten ate...ten watch tv...ten died of boredem...ten did sum chores....ten slept...ten...watch tv...ten showered...ten ate dinner...(hot dogs) ten nw touchering evary1 i cn find to make my misarable life interesting....n sowfar nting hapened...
nites then....hopefully tomoro'z dinner would be interesting...
pray for me...to get thru life with r without god....i need to prove to ppl i can do it...i may have the worst family but i hv gt the ppl who love me around me to pull this together n be sumbody sumday soon.
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